My Skin & Me | 2 Years Post Acne

10th April 2018

My 2 Years Post Acne Skin | Thoughts & Reflections

Acne is so common and yet, still a bit of a taboo subject. We’ve all had spots right? What person hasn’t? However, the difference between a couple of spots and having acne is light years apart. Insta and the glossy magazines all show these airbrushed and flawless faces, so having flawed skin isn’t beautiful right?

I had cystic acne from the eyes down for 2 years. Cystic acne is the one where you look at someone who has it and you think ‘ooo that looks so sore’.

And spoiler, it is.

How did I get it?

Good old-fashioned stress. I was revising for my exams in my final year of university, which threw out my hormones and triggered the start of my acne. Acne can also be attributed to genetics, and seeing as my mum and sister both had cystic acne as well I was just late to the party.

What it’s like to have bad skin?

Is shit an answer? I’ll go with shit. The worst part for me was that I didn’t feel like it was me looking back in the mirror. I know ‘you are more than your skin’, ‘it’s what’s on the inside’. But on those down days, I couldn’t recognise the person I’d seen looking back for 21 years.

Also people telling you this great facial wash their using will definitely help is mega annoying. Oh, and don’t drink milk is also worthy of a ‘please STFU’ response.

What was the worst experience with my skin?

There are 2, both in the v early stages of dating my boyfriend. The first was our second or third date and we went out for a meal, the waitress took us to our table and we were put directly under a spotlight. As soon as I saw it I started to sweat, knowing that it was going to highlight every bump, blemish and flaw that I had spent hours trying to hide under my makeup. I couldn’t say anything as I was still on best behaviour and secretly hoping he hadn’t noticed my skin (lol he had, he has eyes). So I sat trying to tilt my head as far forward as it would go for the duration of our meal. Social skills at their best.

And the second, and definitely the saddest. The first time it came to taking off my makeup in front of him, I sat him down and apologised to him in advance for what he was about to see. And I remember my eyes just filling with tears as I wiped it all away. I was absolutely ready for him to never speak to me again.

When you can’t even see past it, how could anyone else right?

The best part of 3 years later and he’s still here, he’s a keeper.

What helped my skin the most?

I went to the doctors what felt like 5,937 times about my skin. Every time they would recommend a cream or course of antibiotics, that in truth didn’t even touch my breakouts.

For me, I knew I had to balance out my hormones to tackle my skin. So I went on the contraceptive pill Microgynon for 9 months, and this pill actually accelerated my acne and made it worse then it ever was.

My saving grace was telling my doctor I wanted to change my current contraceptive and instead go onto Dianette, which is specifically aimed at women who suffer with their skin. And is what really helped my mum with her acne.

A controversial pill as there are some side effects, as there are with any pill, however I have luckily not suffered with any, and hand on heart, it saved my skin.

I was taking Dianette for around 4 months before I started to notice any real change, but it just seemed to stop my breakouts and let the existing spots have time to heal.

My 2 Years Post Acne Skin | Thoughts & Reflections

Apologies for the poor phone quality back in the day. This is what my skin looked like after being on Dianette for 4 months.

Do I still suffer with my skin?

Absolutely. I still breakout if I’ve eaten loads of rubbish (which is always), or it’s that time of the month. There are some periods where my skin is clear for a few weeks and then really crappy for just as long. And I still have some scarring, some hyperpigmentation leftover that never seems to leave. However my skin wasn’t perfect before I had acne, I’ve got a lot of texture on my cheeks and some big ol’ crater sized pores.

But it’s okay. It’s my skin. I don’t have to apologise for it, whether I have acne or not.

Having actual acne isn’t down to diet, it isn’t down to not taking care of your skin. I took better care of my skin and diet when I did have acne.

Not wearing makeup when you have acne, isn’t disgusting, nor should it be considered brave. It’s skin. In whatever form it comes in, it’s someone’s skin.

So why feel the need to make a comment, or think anything other than, ‘she’s not wearing any makeup, that’s cool’?

If there is one thing I wish I could tell myself in my low points, is that there’s no shame in it. You don’t need to hide. Nobody is going to think that you’re ugly, or you’re ‘the girl with the acne’. It’s not your identifier.

You are still you. You are still beautiful.

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My 2 Years Post Acne Skin | Thoughts & Reflections


7 responses to “My Skin & Me | 2 Years Post Acne”

  1. Joy says:

    Loved reading this post!! I suffer from acne as well so I can totally relate. What I hate the most is when people point out my acne like there’s something wrong with my skin. Acne is not ugly, hate is!

  2. Cherylene says:

    Thanks for sharing your story. Acne is often a challenge for many no matter the size or volume. There are different factors that trigger acne for different people. Sure acne can make us feel like the whole world is looking at us for all the wrong reasons. It takes times some times to find out what is causing it and how to treat it effectively. Concealing can often make it worse. Don’t give up. Don’t stop loving and caring for yourself. Take care of your skin. Eat a balanced diet. Drink lots of water. Acne in my opinion can’t strive in a happy and stress free environment. Love yourself in spite of your acne and it would have no choice but to retreat. 🙂 I find that I have fewer breakouts as a result. Have a wonderful day!

  3. Tanesha Jade says:

    Thank you so much for sharing your story Jade! I’m currently struggling with my skin and it’s nice to hear stories from others who have had acne, especially when they’re a success like yours! Glad you’re loving your skin more chick! Xx

  4. Girl!! With or without makeup you look fantastic!! I am glad though that you are feeling much better about your skin and how it’s looking.

  5. Oh how many times I performed minor surgery in my bathroom because of cystic acne. It’s really horrible having to go through it. I’m thrilled for you!

  6. You’re absolutely beautiful ❤️ I’ve never had acne but I’ve been dealing with rosacea for many years. “Why are you so blushed?” is a very common question. I also hear “you look red” a lot. Well, f*** off. I don’t even wear makeup most days. They’re the problem. Lovely post. ❤️❤️❤️

  7. I LOVE THIS so much!! such a good message that your acne doesn’t define you & you don’t have to hide. such an open & honest post.

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